Good Nite Miss Agnes

I bet you thought I was off having fun...over a month ago I caught some funky flu-like thing, then the babies came and visited, then I was left with the FIBRO FUNKY, and then I had to catch up with real life!...and I know there is a bunch of stuff in between there...I haven't been able to type for a few weeks...doctors seem to think carpal tunnel and arthritis, but then they don't have fibromyalgia and it's symptoms are very wierd. I can type for short periods of time now...and I can sew for small spurts and can't write at all (well, if you want to read it that is).

I am back and hope to play some...I did find that I was spending waaaaaay too much time on the computer. Last fall I had started doing my own daily devotionals, then I started substituting my devotional time with reading spiritual blogs and posts from some very lovely people. I was at a place where I wasn't reading or studying at all by myself (well, me and God)...and this week I had an epiphany...I HAVE to do my devotionals and one-on-one time with God again...my mind stays much clearer and my brain functions better and I like me better when I know myself and what God wants me to do...so the blogs I find so spiritually helpful will be read when I have 'extra' time.

I think I'm on my way back to the goofy woman that my family and friends all know (and love???). See ya soon...got some great 'nature center photos to share and some grown-up grandbabies AND some cool things I made when my hands won't work...! and we won't mention that quilty thing I was supposed to have finished...I'm just not ready to own up to the failure yet.

I started this post last week and just finished today...

Fibro and Politics and no more excuses

It's less than 90 days till Christmas and my BIG plans to have my Christmas gift sewing has been deterred...again, happens every year. Why is that? This is my favorite season - FALL - it is the season that rejuvenates me and makes me feel I can do anything. It's the season I WANT to be outside, walking, looking, breathing, waiting for leaves to change, jumping every time an oversized acorn falls (I am being targeted), mums showing up on everyone's front porch. Last year my next door neighbor cut down 2 huge trees that were in between our houses...I miss those trees...I would sit on my patio and watch squirrels until I lost track of time...then the squirrels would spot me and start hulling their nuts right above my head and I would get bombarded with remnants and missed bites...well not this year...the squirrels had to go find new trees and a new person to annoy in their own squirrelly way.

The last 3 to 4 weeks has been a foggy nightmare...and I couldn't shake it. The political madness had me in knots. Innocent conversations would turn vile and ugly. I normally keep my mouth shut so when people would ask me how I was planning on voting I would just say that I was still weighing the possibilities of both sides (I HATE JUST 2 SIDES). People that I trusted were just like me (in that they also didn't like turmoil and heated discussions) became belligerent and name-callers (things that were said by candidates and bloggers and reporters) that were totally uncalled for and untrue). My sons would come home from school and want to discuss what they had heard and read ...too much political brain overload based on rumors, gossip, and outright falsities.

I have been voting since I was 18. I never knew what party my parents belonged to until I was 25. It was a very personal and private and an extreme thought-provoking privilege to them. I remember the first time I voted. I rode with my dad and on the way there he asked if I knew who I was voting for, not to tell him , just did I know who...I said yes, I knew and before I could say who, he said "Just vote for for who you trust the most". He did ask me how I came to decide and I told him that I looked at it like the US was one big family...the Pres would be the dad (the tiebreaker) if the family (Congress and Senate) was undecided. I told him the Pres to me would be responsible for all outside forces ( like foreign policy, helping other countries, world business) just like my Dad would do making sure all ran well around the perimeters of the USA (family) with the Congress and the Senate. The state offices would be like my Mom who made sure my day-to day life ran smoothly. He just smiled and that was that. I always thought my parents were the opposite party of what they are...they do look at things in a very different way than I do but it's funny we end up wanting to vote for the same candidates.

My decision is done and not without pain and I mean literal pain...the political turmoil this year caused a stress factor like I haven't had in over 3 years which was the last time I had a fibromyalgia attack as bad as the one I am in now. So my absence, foggy brain, lack of projects completed has been explained. Fibro sucks and it sucks even more when stress is added to it, or maybe stress is the real factor in fibro...don't know , I am still learning and coping with this extremely weird, unexplainable condition. But I am feeling better and it's FALL!!!!

Some catch up...some fall behind...and some....

Finally, I started the blog thing...my kids are scattered and want info and news and my friends are scattered and won't call me and my family is nosey...so folks here ya are -

The twins may come at any time...Steph's having contractions...Patrick is nervousing and I am SSSSSOOOOOO
EXCITED! Soon we will have 2 baby girls...woohoo!

Jamey leaves for National Guard Boot Camp tomorrow...yes, i said Jamey...more about that later....

I have all kinds of stuff in my head right now, fibromyalgia, quilting, evolution, insomnia, job hunting, high schoolers, post-high schoolers, grandmothers, FOOD, fall weather, herbs, ...

OK, off to eat and figure out how the rest of this works!